Why I don't have a Bucket List17:54
The House of Pinheiro Sew Photo Hop theme today is Bucket List.
I don't have one and here is why:
We had some bad news 10 days ago, the cancer that Mum had surgery to cure is back. Unfortunately this means that there is little that can be done, oesophageal cancer is notoriously hard to treat, so tomorrow we see the oncologist to see if there are palliative chemo options available.
Life has changed so hugely in the last ten days yet not changed much at all. The flowers still bloom, the weeds still grow, the children still bicker but my outlook on life has changed. I am a planner and a worrier, always have been, but I am going to change that. I have seen how life can be turned upside down in an instant so I refuse to waste any more precious moments from all my todays worrying and making big plans for tomorrows that may never come.
Obviously a totally unplanned life would be chaos, normal planning will all still happen, but as for big plans, whether they are big sewing projects or places I want to visit, I will see where life takes me. I want to enjoy every day of the journey as much as possible. My Mum was thinking about what she would really really like to do in the time remaining and all that is on her list is to spend as much time as possible with her friends and family. It is not places or things or projects that it boils down to, it is the love of and from others.